35 Week Update

I am uber tired. I’ve gained 33 pounds since the pregnancy started, putting me at a whopping 132 pounds now. The baby is moving soooo much and (it feels like) around the clock. Her jabs are getting harder, as she gets stronger. It’s such an amazing feeling!

We’ve got the room complete, now we just have to put together all the furniture to go into it. The cleaning and organizing begin! We’re a little slower (my wonderful husband’s biggest vice is his procrastination, but I still love him, I suppose… hehe), but we’re getting there. I will post photos of the whole room completed once we’re all done. That may take a while though. Heh.

The photo below is of me today at 35 weeks, wearing my latest maternity shirt, with the saying, “I GROW PEOPLE. What’s YOUR superpower?” Hehee.

35 weeks

Advice to the Womb

My darling Baby Bean, there are a few things your mother knows, even given her young age and her not-so-collected wisdom. There are things I want to tell you, and “secrets” to life that I hope would be useful to you later on. Knowledge will begin to build the second you are born, and you will learn many of these along the way, but hopefully they won’t come too much of a surprise if I tell you beforehand. Everyone’s experiences are different, and yours will be different from mine too. Given that you are a girl, I am hoping that I have some pieces of wisdom that you would find useful in your growing years as the female sex.

  • You will have many “expectations” about how you should dress, how you should act, what you should say, and what’s “appropriate” for someone of your gender. I say to you this and this alone: be who you are and never be ashamed. Wear boys’ clothing (because we can get away with it more than they can get away with wearing “our” type of clothing), take advantage of your voice, never let anyone tell you that you can’t do something just because you’re a girl.
  • If you are anything like your mother’s side of the genetic pool, you will be a smaller form of humanity: you will be what your father endearingly calls me: “a little person.” Don’t let this ever get you down because this is the biggest secret of all: big things come in small packages.
  • When you go on your first date, never let your guard down and what you intrinsically know as “right” and “wrong.” Don’t let anyone peer pressure you into doing something you don’t want to do, even if you think everyone else is doing it. Most likely, they’re not.
  • Don’t be one of those “mean girls” your mother knows so well from her own experiences growing up, as well as from her career. Mean girls don’t feel good about themselves. Always be nice, always be giving, always be fair as much as you can. Don’t hurt just for the sake of hurting. It won’t make your day be better. Trust me, it will come back to haunt you.
  • You will learn this over time, but I’ll tell you now: when you make up your mind about something, always allow yourself enough room to change it, just in case. That’s how we grow, little one.
  • What doesn’t break you, will make you ten thousand times stronger. You will always be strongest in your weakest moments. Remember that, and you will be able to get out of any difficult situation.
  • No matter what type of love you encounter in your lifetime, the heartbreaks you will feel after a boy doesn’t call you, or when your best friend decides she doesn’t want to be your best friend anymore, know this one piece of truth: your mother will always love you. Always.
  • There is not a single thing you can say or do that will make me love you any less, or stop loving you. You will make choices that I may not agree with, and we will get into our arguments, but know this as though you will never leave my body, because you are my soul: I will always love you, unconditionally. Doubt everything else, but don’t doubt that.
  • Sometimes your mother is stubborn, and so is your father. Sometimes we will want you to do things and make choices based on what we think is right. Even in our most stubborn moments, please remember that we are trying our best and we only want what’s best for you. Gently remind us that we also want you to be happy.
  • Your parents will make mistakes. Please forgive us for them. You will blame us for many things, but we are truly trying our best and we would never ever want to stop being your parents. We are learning to be your parents just as you are learning to be our child.
  • Admit when you’re wrong, sweetheart. It will make you grow as a person.
  • We are known as the “crying gender.” We are sensitive, emotional, and some of us (as well as the opposite sex) will blame monthly hormones for when we are unreasonable. Regardless of the reason for your unreasonableness, you are entitled to them. Cry with all your heart, laugh with all your soul, and live with passion. Don’t let anyone tell you it’s wrong to cry, or wrong to feel. It is not weakness: it is strength.
  • Find someone you love and who loves you back. That is the greatest gift of life. Don’t hold back when you find him (or her: whichever way you want to swing is cool). Give it all you got, even if it’s scary. That’s the best way to love.
  • Don’t depend on your looks, lovely. You will always be beautiful to us, and you will always be perfect, no matter what you look like. Your looks will fade, your beholder will change, but your mind and your compassion will always stay the same. Grow those, and you will be beautiful for life.
  • When you can help someone, please do. It will make someone’s day, and it will also make yours.
  • Don’t be afraid to speak your mind. It is your greatest weapon.
  • Never stand for abuse, my child. Never ever stand for abuse. I will be your biggest defender, your biggest army, but you will also have to make your own way to defend yourself. Never ever stand for abuse. Love with all your heart, and defend yourself with wit, wisdom, charm, compassion, and kindness. Never ever stand for abuse.
  • You come from a line of strong women, from both sides. We stand behind you every single step of the way. You have an army of strength. You will bleed, you will cry, but behind every drop of blood and tear is a strength that you have inherited from me and from every woman before me. You are strong. This strength I gladly and proudly bestow to you.

There will be more things I will teach you, lovely. Just you wait and see. I will teach you with love, with example, with kindness, with compassion. I will teach you with everything I’ve got.


Your Mama

34th Week Photo

Me and Baby Bean at 34 weeks pregnant. It’s about 11pm, I’m getting ready for bed, all decked out in my favorite pajama outfit — loose and comfy is the name of the game. I’ll take a belly shot update later on. Just thought I’d take a full-body one and show ya all. My belly button has popped out about two weeks ago. All the physical pains that I keep hearing about during the last two months of pregnancy have hit. They haven’t hit “hard,” and I know it’s going to get worse as the last few weeks get closer, but I can honestly say I’m still LOVING being pregnant. What a miracle it is to feel Baby Bean move inside of me! It’s such a joy!! We can’t wait to meet her!